was doing amath and..



okay before i go on,
this is gonna become another i-dont-make-sense post
so you can choose to skip it if you want.
hah anyways.




sometimes i wonder.
when you think about it,
its not love that makes the world go round
its superficiality.
love is centered around superficiality.
that doesnt mean that love isnt true,
neither does it mean that we could do without love,
or that love isnt a many splendid thing.
im NOT undermining love here.
but just bcos love is what it is doesnt mean that its not centered around
superficiality, bcos it is.
everything is.
the world and everyone in it revolves around an axis of superficiality.
and thats how it is.
you cant expect someone to love you unconditionally.
people like to say their parents love you unconditionally.
but the primary reason why they love you is the greatest condition of all
-you're their own flesh and blood.
lovers never love unconditionally.
nobody does.
you cant expect your friends to be there for you always and forever,
no matter what.
bcos they wont.
they cant be.
the grass is always greener on the other side.
which is why we come up with all these ideals,
to create a hyperreality which doesnt exist.
we live superficially,
so we yearn for idealism.
its not gonna happen.
anticipation is our greatest enemy.
thats why its the greatest feeling.




i know what you must be thinking.
'what has this got to do with amath?!'
hahaha yeah i know.
i have no idea where the thought came from either.
but it just.. got me thinking (:





goooodnight!



the day didnt turn out as bad i thought it would (: